-Real Talk-

Priorities .

Okay, so heres the deal. 

Im just like really pissed right now. I like woke up pissed… that hasn’t happened in so long….

1. moving is making me really ugly 

2. This is whats pissing me off…. SO i told my friend that this guy asked me to hang out and we would go salsaing… whatever that means… LOL so yeah he wanted to bring his brother along so i was like OMG my bff toatly would LOVE to go salsaing so i called her like 2 seconds right after he asked me and she was super excited and so was I.

      But heres the side story… her ex has been texting her for a while now, and like he supposedly has been annoying her… Like okay so then don’t text him back. BUT it’s TOTALY understandable how that can be hard. but NOW he’s coming back into town (he no longer lives here for whatever reason) and he’s coming ON friday… (dilemma) I know. And also like he really likes he too, so like the smallest thing can lead a guy on… 

SO ANYWAYS as i digress… he’s coming into town Friday and she’s asking me if we can reschedule and she said he was coming to her birthday which is on Saturday… SO her argument is that “i feel bad, [he] comes all the way down here for me and i dont spend time with him on both days. kind of a biznatch on me.” okay I thought he was coming to her bday… =S w/e but really it was his choice to come I’m sure she didn’t force him to come back. So really? like if you had plans before why are you cancelling them for a dude who you SHOULD NOT lead on… that makes 0 sense… But i told her ” w.e its your choice.” Like I’m not going to tell you what to do its your choice really…. but honestly. I fell SOOO BAD that she’s bailing, like i don’t even know this guy i can’t go alone… and i don’t even talk to that many girls, that alone who are into that kind of stuff.. like wtf… SO NOW I’m left trying to find someone I’m not going to be an ass and make a last min cancellation thats just not cool and as you can see that pisses me off so why would i do that to someone else.. 

ARGH I HATE WHEN PEOPLE CANT PRIORITIZE THERE SHIT! 
BROS BEFORE HOES! 
DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THAT CONCEPT?! LIKE IM SORRY IS HE TAKING YOU OUT TO DINNER?! LIKE WTF?!?! ARGH ! 

SOOOOO PISSED!!! I CANT WAIT TILL I GO TO AFRICA AND SEE MY DAD LIKE AH! I JUST AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! >=(

OH ANDDD! she wants to go clubbing, and she’s barley gone, so imma tryna help a bratha out and one of my really good friends is going out and she wants to go west BUT SHE DOESNT MIND CHANGING HER VENUE JUST SOOOOOO i can spend it with both of them, which is so sweet so we were thinking road house because its such a great time although it isn’t a classy place, its road house! but my friend is to concerned with what others want, but i feel that people should come for you because they want to be with you the venue should not matter. 

     But in the end my friend shoes Vbar, and heres my issue with V. So last time i went i was dancing and this creep was looking up my skirt and i didn’t even realize… ALSO a huge fight broke out AND i go clubbing to dance, and the dance floor there is tiny! AND people i don’t like going out with, thats all just don’t like going out with, go there. So that sucks.  SO i like got a bad feel for that place but she has decided to go there… so ill go there for like a bit, then I’m going to go to West I think for my girl because i haven’t seen her in ages.

I ALSO HATE HOW I MYSELF GO OUT OF MY WAY FOR POEPLE AND I RARLEY SEE THEM DOING THAT FOR ME! =(

any who that is my take

-tK <3 

TEARS.

I try so hard to be strong but I’m actually so weak

why is that i always bundle up how I feel and don’t express how it really is

I don’t know why Im crying it just feels right, but I dunno schools over no more exams and stuff,

I should be happy.. But i dunno Im not.

I just hate being alone and not having anyone with me,

I feel like I ALWAYS go out of my way for people, yet NO ONE goes out of there way for me

Im no ones priority I’m just there option like I don’t matter at all

But I keep up a front like I’m perfectly fine and that Im stronger, People say that confidence is key, 

But for me that just doesn’t seem to be. =( 

I honestly don’t know what to do, I just really want someone to ALWAYS be there for me that I can trust that won’t go and tell people what’s up with me,

anyways I’m off to bed feel a bit better after that. =) at least I know i can tell you tumblr

-tK <3

Random

Heyyyy so its exam time coming up and as usual I’m procrastinating… LOL But i feel like i work best under really stressful complex situations… It’s like a talent ahhaha 

But damn, I really don’t know what I want to major in like, it’s either Acctuarial Sciences ( but it’s so hard to get into) the other option is finance… or like a stock broker that would be interesting.. I really like numbers thoo… and formulas and complicated stuff so yeah… 
LOL this is a pretty boring post but whatevaaaaa LOL

lives good now and thats what matters :D

thats my take

-tK <3 

WORST DAY EVER!

WOW words can not express how shitty my day has been today… Like imma try but it won’t work… 

Viewer discretion may be advised because imma be swearing ALOT i think…

Alrightttt…. So I start my day off with an 8 am class… no biggie kinda shit but w.e thats life. So last night I set my alarm for 6:30 so it went off this morning and OBVIOUSLY i pressed the snooze button REPEATEDLY till it was 7:40 , Class starts at 8. it takes me 40 min to get to school. So at this point I’m already like fuck what am i going to fucking do because the prof already thinks i don’t come to class enough AND I TOLD HER WHY! Ugh ill get to that later. But yeah so i rush get to class 20min late no biggie, so then I was hoping to talk to my prof about this group project that I had a group for and then she booted me out because I was missing like wtf… so i was like kay heres the deal I fucking messaged these group members telling them to text me and nothing has been done yet, so I have no clue what to do and I can’t handle procrastination and then she was all bitchy and was like no stay with that group thats what you get for missing LIKE BITCH WHO WANTS TO BE IN YOUR BORING ASS CLASS AT FUCKING 8am MY MARKS ARE PRETTY GOOD FOR NOT SHOWING UP LIKE IM GOING TO END UP DOING THIS WHOLE FUCKING PROJECT ON MY OWN ANYWAYS LIKE FUCK MIGHT ASWELL MAKE ME DO IT ON MY FUCKING OWN! Let me tell you kay one chick has a drinking problem and shitty marks  some other chick doesn’t even talk and thennnnn this other guy I’ve never fucking laid my eyes on before like wtf. 

So anyways that pissed me off but w/e i got over it gotta deal with what you’re given 

BUT THEN as i was going to my next class i realized i had none of my books on me AND i was going alone… I HHATE being alone like ALOT unless I’m feeling like how i am at this very moment like I wanna die. -_- So yeah I went alone wasted a whole class texting and playing fucking draw something a game i bloddy hate. (WASTE OF TIME = PISS OFF)

Kay then later it was lunch w/e got food and shit life goes on went to my next class STATS everything went well there took a 30min nap and still understood what was happening pretty good and shit

BUT THEN i went to go chill with this guy Simon and we kinda got a thing going w/e no biggie i kinda got lots of things going , I’m 18 don’t wanna be tied down and shit… and yes i make that clear -_-, so yeah i was chillen with him gave him a ride to do this thing then he asked me to chill, NOW HERE IS WHERE SHIT FUCKS UP! 

SO i fucking go chill back at school and i don’t know where to park expecting to just chill for a bit i park in the Handicap spot because there is LEGIT NO WHERE ELSE TO PARK. so i parked there then we fucking go up and they want to get high I’m like wtf is this shit i don’t do week so we go where ever they go somewhere and smoke a joint while i sit in the car like a fucking LONER. w/e though i don’t mind kinda nice to just sit on a swing and shit, but then we go back and I’m enjoying Simon’s company… LOL so i stay longer then i had in mind. Then i go down hope my cars not towed and then theres a van blocking my vision I’m like FUCK ME! run to my car see its there so I’m chill all happy and crap no biggie, THEN I FUCKING REALIZE I HAve A TICKET WOOP WOOP thats fucking great

the best part was that it was fucking 200 DOLLARS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK! I DONT HAVE A JOB AND I AM NOT MAKING MY MOTHER PAY FOR MY MISTAKES ANYMORE! So now i have to find away to get 200$ in the next fucking 10 days whoop whoop and i don’t have a job no money saved or any of that shit. FUCK ME

KAy so then I’m driving home and I kinda sorta like this guy and we had like a Legit thing going 4 months or so ago and now we’ve started to talk again and i like love it but he’s making hard so obviously because of what we had before i believe that he likes me again but noooope after 3 days of hard on macking he decided to inform me that in these past 4 or so months he has transformed into a FLIRT! I don’t even think he’s ever had a girl friend, I believe its all BS. And heres the deal with me :

I fall easy <3

Ergo if someones going to put the mac on me, especially if we had something before imma fall REALLLL Hard and i did yet Kill me now. 

-_- 

Soooo pissed like why do these things just keep fucking over i think its cuz I’m stressed out i need to scrape up money FAST or I’m FUCKED but i have no idea who the fuck is going to lend me 200 dollars 

I will pay them back i just ned to get this ticket paid.

And as for this boy…. Imma make his ass So fucking jealous this friday night its on -_- Bitch!

That was my shit ass day 

-tK <3

Catch UP!

Can’t choose

Alright so I can’t decide what to do
There are two me in my life
1. Who cares for me ALOT and will go out of his way for me
2.A guy who’s just like me and I feel like we can always keep the conversation going
But the cons are
1. Does weed and is shorter then me and is protective and I feel that I can’t hold a conversation with him although I do enjoy his company
2. Is always SOFA KING busy for me, and with that I have MADD trust issues like ahhhh! But we’re the same and he’s taller then me

But I really feel that 1 really likes me how a man should love a woman
And although 2 may have the vocabulary of a man he doesn’t know how to treat a women/invest time in her

I need a man that will go out of his way for me to atleast just see me once Even with his busy life. He says he likes me but does he really? He doesn’t even talk to me when there’s light outside and hes always with other girls

Am I over analyzing things ? I have no idea what to do I’m just so damn flustered.

That’s my issue
Be there for one another and take care

-tK

HeeHee….

So I met this guy and he was my waiter at my bday, I’m not going to lie I might kinda sorta dig him. But I think things may have gone to fast but i dunno I kinda wanna date him but I kinda don’t wanna rush into anything. I like being single and all but he’s so right. I told my friend that if a guy ever took me to a spot in Calgary where you could see the sunrise/sunset/skyline, I would fall in love with him. And he did that… He’s honestly so sweet and kind like ahhhh!! I’m just to scared to get into anything serious… I don’t know why imma wuss :p That’s my take -tK<3